Today is my last day at work.
I dont know if im happy or relieved.
Its a mixed feelings.
But a girl's gotta do what a girls's gotta to do.
And pray for the best.
Celebrated Eid al- Adha with my mothers and granma back at my kampung.
She seemed sad but calmer. And i noticed she tried her best no to be mad at us like she usually does.
Suddenly it made me feels something.
Maybe i'll miss here when im away.
God help me.
Friday, September 25, 2015
Monday, September 21, 2015
London Ticket
Enough of my stupid family problem.
Now I want to concentrate on something more important!
My preparation for London!! Honestly i have not pack a single thing!
Seriously I'm not sure of what the plan here. We bought the ticket already.
My SIL who is doing her master purchased her 1 way ticket. Mine is a return in which i will stay there for a month. If everything goes well I might extend.
My husband and my other SIL's ticket is only for 10 days. So after that I will be left with my SIL to continue our life in London. Errghhhh God please give me the courage.
So frustrating when 1 day after you bought your ticket, the price went down like RM500-RM600.
If only, if only we waited. Haishhh.
No rezeki I guess.
Now I want to concentrate on something more important!
My preparation for London!! Honestly i have not pack a single thing!
Seriously I'm not sure of what the plan here. We bought the ticket already.
My SIL who is doing her master purchased her 1 way ticket. Mine is a return in which i will stay there for a month. If everything goes well I might extend.
My husband and my other SIL's ticket is only for 10 days. So after that I will be left with my SIL to continue our life in London. Errghhhh God please give me the courage.
So frustrating when 1 day after you bought your ticket, the price went down like RM500-RM600.
If only, if only we waited. Haishhh.
No rezeki I guess.
Wednesday, September 9, 2015
Separated
It's really frustrating when your parents are getting old and all you want is them to spend their time together,traveling, or visiting relatives just the two of them or at least be there for each other.
But not.
I guess my father thinks its the best time to get a divorce. For a very stupid reason.
This is all a pure misunderstanding. I believe so. But both of them (especially my father) have an ego as high as the sky and never want to make things right the right way.
Almost 3 months ago,my father brought my grandma home cause she is already very old and sick. My grandma has been staying with my aunt all these while. I guess my father would like to make it up to her by bringing her in and tried to take care of her. The thing is, he himself is not well, so he depends on my mother to also take care of my grandma.
The thing is, my mother has sacrificed all her life to take care of us, my father,the house, everything. I think it's not fair for my father to dump his responsibility to my mother as my mother is also not well. He can simply hire someone to help around because he has the money. But naa-ahhh, he just left everything to my mom and expect everything will be taken care of.
Right now there are a lots of misunderstanding in my family and i really hate this.
Sometimes I just cant wait to leave for London but I know this has to be sorted out before I leave. Or else I wont be at peace.
Sigh
But not.
I guess my father thinks its the best time to get a divorce. For a very stupid reason.
This is all a pure misunderstanding. I believe so. But both of them (especially my father) have an ego as high as the sky and never want to make things right the right way.
Almost 3 months ago,my father brought my grandma home cause she is already very old and sick. My grandma has been staying with my aunt all these while. I guess my father would like to make it up to her by bringing her in and tried to take care of her. The thing is, he himself is not well, so he depends on my mother to also take care of my grandma.
The thing is, my mother has sacrificed all her life to take care of us, my father,the house, everything. I think it's not fair for my father to dump his responsibility to my mother as my mother is also not well. He can simply hire someone to help around because he has the money. But naa-ahhh, he just left everything to my mom and expect everything will be taken care of.
Right now there are a lots of misunderstanding in my family and i really hate this.
Sometimes I just cant wait to leave for London but I know this has to be sorted out before I leave. Or else I wont be at peace.
Sigh
Wednesday, September 2, 2015
Tax Clearance
Of all my working experience and resigning, this is the first time that i have to do tax clearance before they can release my final salary.
I don't know if this is a new rule or not, but this is so troublesome. But I did call the LHDN line to ask for further clarification (since my HR is so not helpful) and yes they confirmed it.
By right this should be done at least 1 month before I tender, But Im leaving in early October and I really have no idea whether I can make it or not. Nevertheless, I still have to do it anyway.
The biggest mistake I made is to tender my resignation less than what is required in my contract which is 2 months. I took too much time to think about whether to resign or stay that only left me 1 month notice. And now I have to pay back my company even though I'm in need of money now! Sigh.
But the funny things is when I called LHDN, they noticed that I have not declared or filing my tax until 2014. So from 2009 until 2013, I did not do any tax filing. Seriously I dont remember. She said it is advisable that i go to my tax branch (for me my branch is in Cheras) and do the tax filing bringing either one of these 3 documents:
1) My payslip for all those years that i have not filed my tax
OR
2) At least 1 month payslip for each of the year that i have not filed my tax
OR
3) Go to KWSP and print the statement for the years that I have not file my tax
Since I dont have anymore Annual Leave left, have to think of a way....
I don't know if this is a new rule or not, but this is so troublesome. But I did call the LHDN line to ask for further clarification (since my HR is so not helpful) and yes they confirmed it.
By right this should be done at least 1 month before I tender, But Im leaving in early October and I really have no idea whether I can make it or not. Nevertheless, I still have to do it anyway.
The biggest mistake I made is to tender my resignation less than what is required in my contract which is 2 months. I took too much time to think about whether to resign or stay that only left me 1 month notice. And now I have to pay back my company even though I'm in need of money now! Sigh.
But the funny things is when I called LHDN, they noticed that I have not declared or filing my tax until 2014. So from 2009 until 2013, I did not do any tax filing. Seriously I dont remember. She said it is advisable that i go to my tax branch (for me my branch is in Cheras) and do the tax filing bringing either one of these 3 documents:
1) My payslip for all those years that i have not filed my tax
OR
2) At least 1 month payslip for each of the year that i have not filed my tax
OR
3) Go to KWSP and print the statement for the years that I have not file my tax
Since I dont have anymore Annual Leave left, have to think of a way....
Tuesday, September 1, 2015
Of Quitting
I finally have the guts to submit my resignation letter to my "dear" boss last week. It was a very difficult decision but it has to be made. My current job is my 9th or 10th job now so I think you must have pretty much idea about how resigning is not unfamiliar to me.
But this time, it was hard. I prayed my Istikharah almost every night just to get a direction from God but I still felt blur. But the fact that i still send my letter indicates that I have found the answer that Im looking for.
The issue is, I dont know how long will i be gone. Im not sure about how im gonna survive there. Yes I have my SIL with me and I can see I will be depending on her for almost everything.
And another big issue is, my commitment here. In other word, my debts. I need to find job as soon as i arrive or i will be penniless and got no other source to pay my commitment. Fuhhh thats the tough one.
Err.. i hope you guys understand my story. Basically I left everything i have here in Malaysia to chase one of my wildest dream which is to live in another country. This idea came up by my husband when her sister has the opportunity to further her master in London. She will be alone so my MIL is not very keen on that so when me and my husband said that I can go and stay with her, she was pretty relieved.
I know this kind of decision is very common amongst the westerners. But Im not the westerners. I am a Malay. Grew up in a family where we dont like risk. We hate uncertainty. So for me to do this and risk everything, my fixed income "stable" job, my family, my life here. my comfort zone, is so out of my reasonable mind!
But if you dont take the risk, u will never know. There are thousands of possibilities out there. So I decided to take the chance and go spread my wings. It might turn ugly, it might be a disaster but Im willing to pay that price for I know there will also be other beautiful things to look out for.
But theres another story about my resignation. Ahh later lah.
But this time, it was hard. I prayed my Istikharah almost every night just to get a direction from God but I still felt blur. But the fact that i still send my letter indicates that I have found the answer that Im looking for.
The issue is, I dont know how long will i be gone. Im not sure about how im gonna survive there. Yes I have my SIL with me and I can see I will be depending on her for almost everything.
And another big issue is, my commitment here. In other word, my debts. I need to find job as soon as i arrive or i will be penniless and got no other source to pay my commitment. Fuhhh thats the tough one.
Err.. i hope you guys understand my story. Basically I left everything i have here in Malaysia to chase one of my wildest dream which is to live in another country. This idea came up by my husband when her sister has the opportunity to further her master in London. She will be alone so my MIL is not very keen on that so when me and my husband said that I can go and stay with her, she was pretty relieved.
I know this kind of decision is very common amongst the westerners. But Im not the westerners. I am a Malay. Grew up in a family where we dont like risk. We hate uncertainty. So for me to do this and risk everything, my fixed income "stable" job, my family, my life here. my comfort zone, is so out of my reasonable mind!
But if you dont take the risk, u will never know. There are thousands of possibilities out there. So I decided to take the chance and go spread my wings. It might turn ugly, it might be a disaster but Im willing to pay that price for I know there will also be other beautiful things to look out for.
But theres another story about my resignation. Ahh later lah.
Saturday, August 29, 2015
My 2nd...
One thing about family is that, they can make or break you. They can be the reason you excel in life or your downfall.
Well, don't listen to me. Playing the blaming game will get you nowhere.
Having a parents who argue constantly really take its toll on me. Especially if it causes your mother to blame you for everything. You can be the best daughter in the world but it can never satisfy her.
I think I can face anything in the world but the moment she became emotional and frustrated, I think that's it for me. I too will become fragile and depressed, I think?
Its been 2 months she has left the house. She keeps on moving between my sister's house, her friend's house and her mom's. I don't know what the ending will be. Will she eventually get a divorce? Will she reconcile with my dad? One thing about my parents, they can say everything and anything when they're mad or angry. But to hear them say "Im sorry" or "Im so lucky to have u" or something like that was impossible. Their ego outcome their love (well, if they still have it)
Well, aren't we all?
Well, don't listen to me. Playing the blaming game will get you nowhere.
Having a parents who argue constantly really take its toll on me. Especially if it causes your mother to blame you for everything. You can be the best daughter in the world but it can never satisfy her.
I think I can face anything in the world but the moment she became emotional and frustrated, I think that's it for me. I too will become fragile and depressed, I think?
Its been 2 months she has left the house. She keeps on moving between my sister's house, her friend's house and her mom's. I don't know what the ending will be. Will she eventually get a divorce? Will she reconcile with my dad? One thing about my parents, they can say everything and anything when they're mad or angry. But to hear them say "Im sorry" or "Im so lucky to have u" or something like that was impossible. Their ego outcome their love (well, if they still have it)
Well, aren't we all?
Friday, August 28, 2015
My Very First...
Hola,
Fresh blog, fresh start. Fresh everything.
Why i create a new blog?
Hmmm. Maybe my new blog will contain more personal stuff and I guess i will speak truthfully from my heart.
So if my reader can find me here, then ok. good for them (not that i have many of them anyway)
If not, it means I'm mumbling here by myself. Alone. Hahahaha
Time feels so fast and Im getting older without me realizing it. Ive been married for almost 4 years now and still no kids. Maybe I'm planning, maybe not my rezeki yet. Only God knows.
But what I do know now, my life is about to change next month. Something that I have been wanting to do for so long but so afraid to take the first step now is knocking on my door. Sometimes I think it's not real. like it's a dream. But its time to wake up. Time to get out of my comfort zone and be in a different world.
What the hell am I talking about? Hahaha maybe for other people its just a small mater, but for me,its a life changing experience. I might make it, i might not. So it kinda thrilled me.
So my first entry just to give a small hint to what is going to be my next journey.
London is calling.
Fresh blog, fresh start. Fresh everything.
Why i create a new blog?
Hmmm. Maybe my new blog will contain more personal stuff and I guess i will speak truthfully from my heart.
So if my reader can find me here, then ok. good for them (not that i have many of them anyway)
If not, it means I'm mumbling here by myself. Alone. Hahahaha
Time feels so fast and Im getting older without me realizing it. Ive been married for almost 4 years now and still no kids. Maybe I'm planning, maybe not my rezeki yet. Only God knows.
But what I do know now, my life is about to change next month. Something that I have been wanting to do for so long but so afraid to take the first step now is knocking on my door. Sometimes I think it's not real. like it's a dream. But its time to wake up. Time to get out of my comfort zone and be in a different world.
What the hell am I talking about? Hahaha maybe for other people its just a small mater, but for me,its a life changing experience. I might make it, i might not. So it kinda thrilled me.
So my first entry just to give a small hint to what is going to be my next journey.
London is calling.
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